Love

Who would you become? If you woke up and the last days of civilization were behind you?
Mankind has a hard time being ok with the thought of things ending. We don't prepare for the end or that it may come like a thief in the night. We have a hard time sating things like they may be the last time we say them, even to the people we love the most.
We use phrases like "you should know I love you." or "if I need to say it, then you don't know me at all." or "of course I love you, why do you need to hear it every day?"
I think of how I have become less and less sensitive to my end or anyones end in this life, this time. I want that sensitivity. I need it. It is my experience.
I feel dead without it. heartless.
I am grateful for my clothes, my water...clean, drinkable water. I am grateful for my tea's, my fruits, my yogurts...such excess I have. I can barely stand to write about it.
I am so grateful that I can provide for my family, my community, for those around me that have less. That need more. I want to do more.
I know who I am.
I know who i would be if this civilization ended tonight. I know
I am grateful for that.
God has saved me from all that I have been. All that I could be.
He has made me new.
I love you.
Please hear His voice. Please know His love.
If I could give you all I had, to show that it's not anything. It's yours.
So that you may know Him.
All that is
All that matters
All that is Good.
Good Night.
May we meet again. May we share in life at least one more time.
You are special.
Love, love, love.